I seriously need help, i feel like im numb, i cant cry, i cant trust anyone, loosing hope for life?

that's a lot of stuff so ill give u a lot of answers i mean u honestly need to slow down on the whole boyfriend thing so that u can get yourself straight if u know what i mean because its like these guys are not getting the whole u because they are under pressure and i don't like the way : they have THE NERVE to break up with u for slutty people or so and sos cousin blah all these crazy love triangles IF U MUST TALK TO THIS NEW BOY BUT HAVE IT BASED MORE ON FRIENDSHIP THEN RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE GIRL U NEED A FRIEND NOT A BOYFRIEND FILLED WITH SEX sucks with the whole job thing my mom wants me to get one and yelled when i had trained though i rejected it shes over it now i told her butt im 18 but in school community college in fall is when my work begins and that i want ot just chill i don't drink or smoke and Still a virgin so hopefully it ll will be okay and i am proud of u lol but seriously i like listening to people and helping them with their problems that's why i am going into humans services and enrich the community !1